This blog starts with a little bit of [completely justifiable] shallowness. I was on Facebook, thinking about what status could possibly accurately describe my current state of mind. My first thought: it's funny how my struggles are immediate consequences of losing sight of the basic truths of the Relationship. I feel like lately, I've let the Relationship go. Whether it's a platonic or romantic relationship, when there is a lack of communication, there really isn't much of a relationship (boy, have I learned that in the past!). I've been on edge lately. And though I fill in my reasoning with lots of good excuses, the truth is I haven't taken time with my God. Earlier today (a portion of my on-edgeness), I talked with a friend of mine, and she made a request of me. I honestly had too much to do today to even think about leaving the house, but then I thought (and I know it was the devil - he's attacked our friendship before), "Why do I feel like it's always me giving in this friendship?" And then once I got over my selfishness, I started thinking about my relationship with God, and how He probably feels that way with me, about, eh, say... 97.5% of the time. I feel like God is giving so freely and mercifully, and I'm not taking. Or I accept what He does for me as amazing, but then I move on, forgetting that in order to be in a 2-way relationship, I must do my part. And in order to ever pursue a relationship with anyone in the physical realm, I must first have a relationship with the creator, molder, and perfecter of all good things. And stop making excuses.